See It To Believe It
I don’t need to see it to believe it. I know you are there God. For this feeling of goodness and peace even while I walk through the desert is not something that I can provide for myself. Yet, my Lord, people say they must see You to believe You. Why won’t you reveal yourself to them if that is all they need to believe in you? Oh yes my Lord, it is obvious, they do not mean it. When you did show yourself, they did not believe you; when you died on the cross they did not believe you; when you rose again they did not believe you.
While the heart is hardened, no matter how obvious you appear to them, they will reject You. I know You are the God who provides all of what we need and not necessarily what we may want. You have been faithful to us despite our selfish ways. Although we constantly break our promises and commitments to you, you steadily stand firm on Yours. Why must we be like this Lord? Oh yes, that is right, we are nothing but mere humans and You are God. Lord, it is obvious that you exist. Even the ones who don’t believe in You must believe in You to acknowledge that You don’t exist.
Lord, so then why do the same people who say they need to see you to believe you profane Your name? Oh yes Lord, it is very obvious as well. Just as the Pharisees wanted a sign and none was given to them, You are the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End; You do not owe us anything, and we owe you so much.
Everyone You have sent to prepare their hearts and give them the good news, they have ridiculed them, murdered them, cast them away. They are in search for understanding of the world. However, they will search for this understanding of the world until they die and find nothing because You own all of the world. If it is not Your will for it to be revealed, then it shall not.
So Lord, please fill my heart with this understanding: why do people who claim to believe in You praise your name but continue to walk in darkness and not live as a servant to You? Have you not provided them with the same freedom you have provided me? Oh yes Lord that is very true. You did say that they love you with their mouths but not with their hearts. Yes, I know they will call on you when they need You but forsake You when they don’t. Blessed are those who invite you into their hearts for they are pure of heart and seek to be humble and meek as you are.
But woe to those who go in searching of performing good deeds and think that is what You look for. I understand good deeds are important, but only when done for the right reason, and the right reason is in your name. Yes Lord I know, man wants to be seen by men to hear “good job,” have it placed on a resume, talk about it at the church barbeque, but I know once they get the praise from man, and it goes into their worldly book, it immediately leaves Your heavenly book.
So what is their motivation my Lord? Oh yes indeed, they want to use Your name for the bad and their name for the good as if they had any power whatsoever. God please mend and mold our foolish hearts to see you in pure form so we can see what You want from us. There is nothing worse than a proud servant. Lord I have something to address with You. Last year before I really knew You, I prayed a selfish prayer and you did not answer. I was upset with You, the world, and myself. They claimed you were always there and would provide. I was very upset.
However, I cannot stop thanking you now because I know you heard my prayer but knew not to answer and fulfill my request. If you did, I would never love you as I do now and you knew where my heart was, hardened as a mountain. So I know You are the God who is my provider. It is evident that some of the greatest prayers You answer are the ones you don’t answer.
Father God, I thank you for this wonderful conversation we have just had and all the revelations you have provided me. As you have commanded, I will share this conversation with all so that hopefully, just hopefully, one person will read this and Your glory can be revealed upon them. Thank You Father for You, Your precious Son the Lord Jesus Christ, and Your Holy Spirit which lives in me and enables me to walk in Your Holy Name. Selah…